well, to fill everyone in about everything (my how descriptive) i got caught living my double life. no longer my parents perfect angel. they read my journal and know about the variety of drugs, cutting, drinking, stealing, lying, and eating disorder. im severely grounded but things have improved since Carla spent the weekend. i've been told not to cry, told not to cut, and forced to eat, so i have no release anymore and am at a general loss. its been 2 weeks almost.that about sums up recent events.